Thursday, May 18, 2006

A few things to blog about today..

English Standards
haiz... Suddenly feel very depressed, by looking at Xinhui's Sec 4 compositions, I juz don understand why my english standard so lan... haiz.. All of flute section's standard of english is soooo li hai except, me, haiz... when can then i ever write like that.... my compos lan de yao ming, and my compre sux too... Further more, English is a compulsory subject for O levels... My dream is to get in Temasek JC, Which needs 8 points to enter, the min grade i can get for english is a B3... Wanna cry.. And.. SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO Many people in my class, got such flabbergasting, unbelivable and amazing english standards... I can name u a few: Khye an, marianne, Dominic(His rich skills in vocabulary and compo writing are juz unbelievable... Helped me many times to rephrase my sentences, thanks..) and koong jye, jasmine, Er hao, vivian, Stephanie, Amos lim and ghui, Alvin, regina. See 12 people liao leh, and still got many more.. I 'm juz too tired to think more... When can i be like that... All though i am doing ok in math and sciences... haix... I am sooo damn worried.. very scared.... If only one of the english pros can help me... Mrs Tang said the only way to improve is to read more... I don think that will help....

Band matters

Today in band, we have been given the repertoire for june concert... I feel that romanasque had spoilt the whole thing

-Bandology
-Romansque
-John Williams in concert
-Dancing in the wind, Kaze-no-mai (cannot wait)
-Jungle Rhapsody ( Should be interesting ba..)
-intermission-
-Clarinet choir
-alumni - Southwinds
-Concerto de amore( OMg lor... I soooo wanna play this piece, have learnt it liao)
- One Life
-combined band(Dunno playing wad.)

That's the repertoire.... I seriously don like romansque, the long notes of the values are long, and if tuning change, u know how repugnant it is going to be, the audience sure vomit blood... That's why i worry.. I think we should do away with that piece and add in 2 more pieces, 1)Airs for wind orchestra, 2) Zodic, limit for the lion... I am getting a little sick from the scores being recycled again and again, it's so boring... Cannot wait to start on Danicing in the wind.. I saw the scores already... so excoted... Can't wait... i am dying to get my hands on the score.... I wanted to smuggle out the flute 1 original score of that piece, But if i did that, Mr Band major, Sir ( Chua Er Hao-3E1, Prefect, band major) I find calling him that fun... no offence though.. Will sure reprimand me and the libririans will hamtam me and Fine me, hmm, how much, i think.... Priceless... haha.. that score to me is priceless at the moment... Oh man, looks like i have to be patient for the scores...Haix.... I seriously am dying for the scores... will the libririans hurry up, dying for the scores, no lah juz jk... But i realli hope that we can get the scores asap... And Hilary, don worry can, the ic's for the sec 1s is Joanne ker wan ching.. UNDERSTAND.. u will be playing for the band competition lah, haiyo... haha... Cannot wait to go mjc's concert, which is TOMORROW!!!!

Prefects
I am worried... I seriously wanna quit prefects.. the onli thing i worry about this is entering the election( i hope i am not).. Is not that I am worried about making a speech in front of th whole skool or something.. is juz that, i wanna quitprefec is becoz, i wanna concentrate on band.. although my rank is juz a simple SL post, i seriously love this.. If u let me choose between the head prefect of the skool and SL of flute section... My choice would be the SL of flute section.. Seniors have entrusted me to this job, so i muz carry out my jobs dedicatingly.. But if i enter the election, i have to make a speech.. someone suggested, since u don 1 then juz make a crappy speech in front of the skool lah... But, i juz wanna tell him/her that, i wanna take thing seriously, coz, When it is time to be serious, u muz be serious... Imangine.. u r in the election, then u get last in the election(the least votes) even how desperate u r to quit prefects, u will be so depressed right???? Ya, that's my reason for wanting to quit prefects... The prob is, i don't know
how to kai kou to mr gng.. how.... He sure say cannot one luh.... Er hao is he wanna quit of course is a piece of cake, he is band major, so juz say wanna concentrate on band, but for me, my rank is juz an SL, it won't make a diff... haiz...touch wood, if i enter election and in 1 of the top few ranks eh?? Then i will not have time to go for band u know a not.. i will have to go to prefect meetings and go like:" U all think u r carrying out ur jobs properly??" and " Ok, duties for recess.. u do this and she do that" seriously, i don even have the capability to be a head prefect... I am juz too dan xiao... I don even dare to ask a sec 4: " can u pls put on ur name tag pls.." For goodness sake, see? and i tell u, xiang ling( sec 5 senior prefect) reprimanded us the other day not long ago.. " u all are juz walking around the sec 4s never ask them to stop talking... bla bla bla.... actually, every morning u all are juz standing there laughing and laughing... wad u all do huh??" In the end, she ran to the girl's toilet and cry... at forst, i felt realli angry bout this matter, but by looking back, i realli felt wad she say is true, though she did not tell us about this in a nice manner... Haix.. See how useless i am??? What should i do... How to quit!! help.. and i like promised joyce that i will never quit prefects...how... i realli need help also.. haiz, i should've listen to seniors, that is not encouraged to join prefects.....

Exam matters

Kks, this is the thing everybody is sooo not looking forward to. Except for elites and geniuses like shermine, regina, marianne, mei ee, clara, and all these peeps whom i admire, how can they do it wif ccas schdule being sooo tight... I am not looking forward to reeceiving back my results.. i am having horrible and worrying thoughts like:" Wad if i don get a good mark?", " wad if realli i cannot do it?" I wrote on my wishlist to be i top 15, maybe er hao is right.. there are juz too many pp in the class who is cleverer, smarter than me although i am aiming an 8th in class, but i don think that will be juz possible...
Reason why i wanna be 8th

1st in class- Shermine yeo ya wen (duh!)
2nd/3rd in class- Marianne/ mei Ee
4th/5th in class-Clara/regina/stephanie
6th/ 7th-weineng/alvin/er hao
that's why 8th..

Actually, for most of you, exams are over. For me, i still have major exams..

- Gold star swimming test ( 28/5/06)
-SMO
-National band competition

I am scared.. am screaming in my soul desperatly for help.... Wad to do, Results are nerve tensioning and more exams coming are stressful and drving me up the wall.... Wad to do.. i am veri veri veri veri - to infinity- scared, stressed and desperate for help... hasd never felt this way be4.... haiz...
am scared... realli scared.. haha, sorry today post sooo long, thanks for reading... anyway go see TV liao... kks?? bb

-JeRm