Tuesday, January 23, 2007

weather: Grey sky, well, still a little sun
23rd January 2007
music(new!): pallet town's lullaby-pokemon, disney's fantullusion

Hi. ok. haha, so much depressing posts earlier on. haha. finally recovered from my depression already. but now theres something going on again. (HERE WE GO ALL OVER AGAIN. )zhi Hao is starting to break down. and i am very very worried for him. hope everything can turn out fine for him. I will try to do my best in band, studies etc etc to help in. OK zhi Hao? I will promise, dont make you worry lers. You got SOOOOOOOOOO many many things to do. if its me i also wanna collapse. jia you! and dont worry! if got things can always come find me and jun. sighs, I now dont care about anything lers, even if the rainbow dont form, or etc etc. Now i just want zhi Hao to get well. :/. then somemore, waaa. its just after i get well from my trauma. then now zhi Hao's turn?! omggg.. hope things get better soon. and i pray. pray to my gods- yuan shi Tai zhi, qian shou qian yan guan shi ying pu sa. Please bless that zhi Hao will get well soon, and can be ok again. me and jun are doing the best we can already. but now, despite the worrying for zhi Hao, i also worry about wei jun. =(. THOUGH jun seems ok, then me and him currently ok. But i very very scared for him also, please please DONT. DONT go depressed, dont GO crazy after zhi hao. PLEEEEEASE. i also know you gonna break down pretty soon already. sighs. I sometimes feel so useless though, both my juniors have sooooooo many things to do (not convenient to type it out here), then i cannot do anything to help them. Even if i can, its like only 5% or even less. sighs. god, please please help zhi HAo to tide through this period of time, and please make sure jun will be all right and hang in there. sighs. zhi Hao. Jia you kays? i will do whatever i can to help you. sighs.

ok, studies. WELL. studies are getting more and more xianz. I start to get xianed with topics i dont understand, and the teachers arent willing to explain and they ask you go and read up yourself. =.=. WTHH.. I now like TOTALLY lost my interest in chemistry already. and i am gonna flunk the electrolysis test we took. if i ever pass that test, I will jump for joy. well, maybe. and math we started on the cheemer side of differentiation. REALLY DONT UNDERSTAND. haiyoo. DIE LER LAAS. omgg. then english is ok. math gotta buck up. chinese is ok. heh.=).Physics also! magnetism. woots. the dunno what wire coiling around the magnet. ways to magnetize and mr yap's MAGIC TRICKS. haha.=)=)!!chem arhh, haiyoo, i wanna give up on it can?!??! UGHH. i now like totally hate it. amazing arhh, juz 1 teacher, can turn it from your moost fav subject to the 1 you HATE most. biology is ok, just nothings going inside my brain.=.=.SS and History arhh! HAIYOO. sooo many things to remember. ugh. well, muz jia you lers. mm Hmm.

well, syf's coming, CA is coming, O level is coming.KINDDA worried. well, dont care, i will graduate from band with PRIDE. heh. muz jia you!! get gold with hons. heh.=)=)! then can have the nice nice photo=)=)!! and then dont care, during syf, i MUST play it with my best tone and VIBRATE!! muz have enough qi! heh. well, speaking of the graduating thing, reminded me of something zhi Hao and jun said. haha, when they ANGRY with me that time, they(a group) cant wait for me to graduate. and LEAVE this band. well. actually, Haha, I dont mind nehhs. sometimes, i also feel like leaving due to the stress. heh. but its ok, I love the music, i will stay. and hmm, should say this not, I scared lehhs, later say the offend senior again. but ok, i say, i dont wanna keep suspense. DIE ALSO DUN WANN. i now hate suspense like shit. tell you if you interested. well, sometimes, when 1 of my senior( start with A der) make me angry, , I feel like also cant wait for him to graduate.SORRY. didnt mean to. But really, Iwann to be honest, sometimes when I really really angry. I just can't wait for him to leave the band when i super super qi! heh! BUt haha, now ok liao laa, its the immature mind last time that resort me to this thinking. haha.NO OFFENCE KAYY??? if have arhh, SCOLD ME LIKE SHIT in the tagboard.. OK? OK well tired liao, gonna rest then CHOING HMK. haha, well actually to be truthful also, NO OFFENCE, DONT ANGRY OR ANYTHING KAY? now come to think of it, kindda hurt when your juniors say things like that. oh well, dont stress bout this liao kay? is i really wanna say out. SORRY senior. sosososoosos sorry kay? I mean, you must be really really hurt if you know i feel that way. so so sorry. well, now i at least know how my senior would feel if he ever gets to know this. oh well. ok, chiong hmk liao. bb

-jErM
p.s. hope this post is not like story book.=)