Thursday, January 18, 2007

weather: okok. gonna rain, gonna shine
18th january 2007

hi. ughh. sick. stuck at home with piles of homework. =.="". I juz finished zuo ye. yup. left with the english convo and to study physics on electricity for tmr's test(which is supposed to be today =.="").. xiannn.. UGHHHH. why muz i get sick at this time of the year?!??!? ESPECIALLY THURSDAYS?!?!? when there is the most lessons. haizz. I also dunno why i got sick. WHOLE BODY ACHING LIKE CRAPP NOW. Hope can get well by tmr. and tmr is the syf rehearsals ugh. well, ytd, excpet for dinner and an energy bar for recess. I ate nothing else. Tummy's grumbling like mad, but juz didnt had the appetite to eat. When for band, then played the 2 pieces. Zodiac was ok for me, managed to pitch the high notes on the piccolo. >.<.=). but then, for sunrise, the solo sucked. COS i never eat anything, was soooooo hungry, and everything when flat on the flute.=.=""". and then, ++ i was using spoilt flutes.The section flutes now all spoil till very jia lat la. sec 1 all using spoilt flutes. except joanne's. =.="""". Well, listened to jun's solo ytd also. haha, pro pro de.=). even seniors say his tone is delicate, sweet and slick. =). well, haha, have to learn from him his tone.=). zhi Hao's pitching also. woots~~haizz. WHEN then i can play like them. well, actually, every player has their good points and bad points. yup. haha. but dunno laa, zh and jun keep saying my vibrato is nice. sianzz. On monday, when seniors come down, i was feeling damn depressed. then everything also cannot play out. piccolo a lot of notes cannot sustain. all airy der. maybe still having phobia, and feeling very down ++ not well. SO SIANNZNZNNZ. ughhh. then i feel very sad la.=(. haizz. NVM. friday's rehearsals, (which is tmr), must jia you!! I make sure today I SLEEP EARLY EARLY, HAVE EAT EAT, AND MAKE SURE I HAVE ENERGY, AND I MAKE SURE NO ONE PROVOKES ME FOR THAT DAY!!!! if anyone dares, get ready to go deaf. woots~~ (you get what i mean, SCREAMMMM INTO YOUR EARS AND SCREECH HIGH NOTES ON THE PICCOLO TO YOU!!). haiz. ok, speaking of which, i dunno whether zhi Hao forgive me already a not. ytd morning, when i passed him an apology letter(cos sms dun wann reply, msn talk to him no reply, dun dare call him) his face was like sooooooooo black. then like super duper furious, angry and everything at me like that. So i just slipped him the paper. thats why ytd no appetite. cos I have let my juniors down. =(. sighs, BUt if zhi HAO forgives me, then i am ok liao.=). but in band, he did talk to me properly, but i dunno laa. ZHI HAO??? you forgive me already?!??! PLEASE SAYY YES.. sighs... well, hope to hear from him soon. yup. now my energy level is like being depleted in half. and feeling very weak. PE ytd was ok, except then when finish, everyone was close to being dead.

dead. shit. why use this word?? sighs. it reminds me of a lot of things. lately, everyone has been sooo worried for me. EVERYONE. reallly. my seniors, my juniors, my section, my teachers, my classmates. EVERYONE. eg, at the end of history class, mr das told me"jermain, lately you have been looking dead, gonna introduce you to some tonics". mrs wan also! mr yap has also noticed that i am dozing off easily in his class. (mANnn!n!n!n! PHYSICS NIA!!MY FAV). MR TAN ALSO. xianzzz. AKLGHJDSKLJAHBAKN. I mean, is not that i dont appreciate all of your concerns. but all of you have your own stress as well. dont worry! I will learn to take care of myself. But thanks a lot a lot for you all the concern KAY?!?!but really. time is short. no time liao. you all have a lot to do.. haha, but really, thanks a lot. try to get myself back to normal kay? i PROMISE NOT TO BE DEAD. but then, even if i get back my energy, will result in a lot of things again. =.=""". LATER affect a lot of pp. later i am lame again. then hurt pp's feelings again. *sighs*. well, at least let this energy i have in me sustain me for a while. when i get back my energy. I will learn to be WEI JUN ON MSN. WOOTS~~~~ wei jun nowadays you talk to him. is all monosyllabic answers de. like i type like 10 words to him. he juz reply: "yes, no, orhh" this kindda things. haa. if liddat de hua i realised that, by doing this way, I wont hurt a lot of pp as well!! then pp also no need to see my lame side. oh shit. giddy. sinus. head pounding. ughh. nvm, persist till i type finish this. jun! thanks a lot for teaching me this method kay?!??! HAHA. oh yeahhh. no need to hurt pp anymore. YAY. ok. gonna see doctor. come back gonna "continue study" for physics liao.

now, browsing through some websites. i found a website that make me very super duper happy, and 1 that made me
think a lot.

the happy site: www.soundclick.com This site contains LOTS AND LOTS AND LOTS of band tracks!! A LOT. from folklore to band to alvamar played by NUSWS. even disney's fantullusion. got me super amazed. can download them as well!! haha, really, if you want band tracks, go here and GOK kay???

the site that made me think a lot: HSC band group. click on the link to go see.

"heya to all HSCBand members!!
this group was created on 31st December 2002 for all of us Hai Sing Band members - whether you are still in the Band or have graduated with pride.

our huge Concert Band grew from a tiny, weak and anonymous band to an award-winning, reputable Band, boasting two consecutive Gold awards in the recent Singapore Youth Festival Central Judging for Concert Bands.
all of us would love to see this highly plausible trend carry on."

and i also looked at some photos, i saw mrs chua smiling with the exco commitee of last year. saw her with the drum majors/majorettes.

I feel that now, our band has made mrs chua angry. we don't play as good, and are actually like, very dui bu qi the seniors. tmr, we going to the conference hall somemore. i very very scared. what if syf we get silver how? is like very very dui bu qi the seniors, very dui bu qi our instructors and teachers in charge. i dont care. Muz try my best to make the section be the best section in the WHOLE BAND!! WAHAHHAHAA. ok. =.="". but i hope all SLs have the same thinking! so that when ALL the SLs are like that, all the sections will strive and work hard. and mrs chua comes back. and we can DO THE SENIORS PROUD. uh Huh. *hope this didnt offend anyone? if it did, PLEEEEASE PLEEEEEEASE scold me severely on my tagboard. I will delete der"

k, gotta go study liao. BB

*stares at Physics TYS" hehehe..
bb

-jErM