Sunday, February 11, 2007

WEather: still bright and sunny
11th february 2007
Music: graduation- by vitamin C

HI. ok, whew, just did 2 WHOLE HOURS of practice on sunrise solo. just that 4 bars. you might call me a crazy man. and the section also said that i should give it up to jun due to my unstable playing. but then, yar when to crec, I know everything about it already. i did a lot of notations on that 4 bars. just sit there, noting when to vibrate,endo, when to decrescendo. and i found a place to breathe!!I even researched on types on tongueing. and i found out A LOT. seriously A LOT. when legato, instead of daa, you have to sayy "tooo" then when you play normal, you go teee. haha, even if jun takes over, i will pass him all my notes der. and then, i also know why i am playing super unstable. why my tone is sooo unstable, like sometimes super nice, sometimes like da bian. why i cant vibrate.

reasons for unstable playing:
1) I AM NOT EATING ENOUGH. - vibrato needs a lot a lot of energy, if dont eat, no way to express
2) TONE. when dont eat enough, you play like crapp. serious
3) didnt sleep early. when i dont sleep early, cant concentrate, get very restless easily. play like shit.
4) sitting directly RIGHT UNDER THE AIR CON WHICH HAS BEEN JUST INSTALLED. brr. very very cold. when you are super cold, you play like shit.
5) your instrument gets affected. Cos, when you expose your instruments to extremes of temperatures, it will go wrong. That explains why, ben lai sectionals, my flute hao hao der. then after that, come down band room, go heywire, dont wanna listen to me.
6) piccolo playing. by right, it shouldnt affect me much. But the prob is, if mrs chua starts with SUNRISE that day, the solo can play out very very nice der. But is like play a lot a lot of songs hou, then sunrise super hard to express.

hence. I found out that factor 4 and 5 is affecting me the most. Hence, i shall ask mr chua er Hao to NOT switch on the aircon that blows me directly. next, talk to mrs chua whether shuold let jun or me do it. mrs chua decides. I will talk to her der, see what i can do. so hence, next practice, i wont listen to the section to give up so fast, If my theories above all dont work. then i give up. haha, if it remains unstable, then i think give way to jun baa. for the sake of the section. I think i can do it. i can der. today, when practicing the 4 bars, noting, researching, my sisters hit me, beat me, ask me to stop. soo freagin noisy. repeating the same melody like a spoilt tape. but i think, i can do it. i dont care, i will TRY MY BEST TO DO IT DER. SO, i again once hold back my descion to let jun do it first.

SORRY FOR BEING SOOOO CAPRICIOUS. but if jun really wants to do it, go ahead, I have no objections. But then so super sorry for keep blowing hot and cold. but i really really think i can do it. this 2 hours, sitting there, researching, noting, doing everything i can; i want to try it ONE LAST TIME- which will be on FRIDAY. yup. if friday, i really really cannot do it, then jun takes it baa. I will suggest to my conductor der.=)

-GO JERMAIN. woots~~

-jErM