Saturday, November 17, 2007

weather: night.
17th november 2007
music: bai gei ni-elva, luo zhi xiang, niu zai hen mang- jay chou

okay. so i havent blogged for quite some time. and many many things have been happening lately that i've almost no time to touch the computer. I am tired, very tired. haiz. somehow, class chalet was fun. but a bit sian. haha. played majhong, played cards, watched movies, talk talk talk and stone. how fun. oh ya. and eat lots of stuff. and today's alumni's band practice rocked. ya. had loads of fun. I miss playing with the seniors. yeah. well, played the songs today. and apprently, my sight reading sucks. ya. hmm. am still thinking of whether want to go mj auditions a not. ya. what if i can't get in? what if i can get in? very irritating lehh. omg. I dunno what to feel. ytd was also nco pop. yeah. feelings in feelings out, every feeling also have. ya. somehow, can sense something. ya. nevermind. haha. anyway, am tired. g for which JC to go isnt helping either. somehow, i feel that the only thing that keeps me happy now is plareally tired. i dunno what to do. I feel that HSC band isnt what the band that it is used to be. ya. if i were to post my comments about the band here, I guess that it will start up another incident whereby the band ppl will comemy tagboard and scold me again. then the whole thing will start again. oh ya, and i went back to see the band on thursday to go and gok flute. but i went there early, after band, i kindda buay ta-hanned the messiness of the band room and started cleaning. then Miss leung came in and scold jun and the grace(i think, or was it the other twin?). should have learn to tolerate even more. i dunno laa. am feeling very depressed all of a sudden. i dunno what's wrong with me. and somehow, when i think about how i am going to fare for my Os, it makes me feel nothing but worse. made SOO many stupid mistakes. Frettinying flute. But aiya., dunno laa. I everything also dunno. Somehow, when i think that i am helping, i will only end up making things worse. ya. oh, and lately, jun's nicks arhh. ayee. ya. pls be high during band camp. is not i wanna say, but this is the first time the leaders have to ask its members to be high. I mean, can see that the little guys trying really hard to get the band together. But the band so sian. ayee. and as a senior, i feel really bad that i cannot do anything to help him. ayee. somehow, i want to be happy. am sick of problems. pimples are forming, white hairs appearing. somehow, i really wish to fly to a place where i can be happy, no worries. but hope. thats all i can do. hope.

-jErM