Sunday, February 03, 2008

weather: grey skies
3rd february 2008
music: die flemmendaus overture

mmm. havent been really touching my blog. no time. mmm. mum's kindda mad at me for some apparent reason(which i am damn sian to elaborate), so its even more sian diao4. donno how to do my assinments its even worse, actually also cannot say dunno how to do, 1 question can take up to 20 mins? so very sian diao4. oh mann. such a siao diao4 day. oh well.

band appeals for jae are over. really hope that lliot, bao hui, triangle all can get in. oh mann. mmm. lets see how. woa. and chinese new year celebrations at our school is like so fun. haha. as in, the time spent with people is fun laa. Like with my section and everything. haha. kachangputeh was nice, and so was the chocolate brownies. haha. heard that cheesecake was good? oh well. Left the college at about 8.50pm that day? yeah. had dinner till quite late laa. say 10pm? well. was waiting for jia yee laa. cos she knows what bus can take up to boon keng. and I am lazy to ownself check and what nots. yeah. so all rights, now i know how to go nai's house already. thats an accomplishment. staying at grandmas is always fun. the childhood memories that flood back. oh well. yeah. -misses grandad :(- anyway, nai nai started singing karaoke ytd. woa. she hasnt sang karaoke for a really really long time. so, its good. and she marathoned for 3 hours. break a while. and marathoned for another 3 hours. so its really pro of her. yups. haha. oh well. yeah. really miss the times spent there. so carefree, so stress free, so fun. and the best is, you dun have to face reality there. its like, when I am there, its like just being brought back to child hood, and how fun it was then. =//. maybe i just dont like reality? i dunno. no wonder I am in love with fairy tales and fantasies at this age. and its not a suprise that i love satoshi pieces. all so fantasy one. oh well.

jc life is both mentally and physically exhausting. mmm. learning some stuff from kj and xy. thanks so much for everything yeah. like all the diaphragm usage(more diaphragm usage) and tongueing, whistle tones and what not. oh mann. the only time that i really really enjoy myself nowadays is at band. oh well. =//. haha. going high with xy and xue er(cheryl) is really fun too? i guess. haha. now must pull shi jie in. haha. xy's going to teach her on the playing. haha. oh well.
lets see how it goes.

oh well, going off to mug. damn loads of work. sian..

I just seriously wonder, how long more of all this i can hold. the tension is mounting. and Im already on the brink of giving up. its damn tiring. really damn tiring. really feel like giving up. but musnt let myself down. musnt let them down. oh well.. lets see how more of this can i hold.

-jErM