Tuesday, February 26, 2008

weather: night
26th february 2008
music: allegro cantabile-nodame soundtracks

oh gosh. horrible week.

feeling dead tired. as in. yeah. dead. I guess, the j2s are having a hard time as well, like seeing how busy andy is and how tired kj is everyday. oh gosh. yeah. everyone's tired. i guess.

somehow, ive been thinking about it. what my mum said, what my cousin said...

"you think arhh, pdp can only bring you this far. but your studies can bring you further, a lot of ppl focus a lot on pdp.. so on and forth".

mmmm. and my mum apparently thinks that i should like stop focusing so much on band and focus more on my studies. mm. but the thing that i wanna prove right now is that i can do well in both band and studies. yeah. and by doing well in band, that means. playing well.

quote from hsm 1

troy's dad: "you cant be a singer troy. you're a basketball person, not a musical person."
troy:"well, did you think maybe i could be both?"
and walks away.

mmm. somehow, cant i excel both in studies and band? gosh. this is so hard.. my playing is horrendously bad. but 1 things for sure is that, first, i cant tense up. i gotta relax. thats the first thing. once i relax, I will do so much better. be it in anything i do. oh gosh. i gotta like seriously relax... looks like, i gotta first think to relax. like really relax.. now is how..

that time kj said during sectionals not to force the air out, and he demonstrated how i breathe, and i how released the air. I went back home, loooked at the mirror and went. woa. i really did that. mmm. loooks like i really gotta chill. haha. and i guess gotta go look for ah xiang jie jie for chemistry help already. my mole concept is dying and there is a test on 4th march. argh
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1) meanwhile, theres an incident which i stil feel damn paiseh about.

i wanted to call michelle(tjc clar) that day. and i ended up calling michelle(hsc,2e4). i went: hello michelle where are you now?
mictch(2e4): erm, why?
jerms suddenly realised that its not michelle. its michelle.
jermain: OH SHIT. SORRY! WRONG MICHELLE
mitch: *laughs*, nevermind

arghhh. I havent talked to her for like months and i acted like some guy who knew her like every day. oh gosh. sometimes, i feel like so stupid. when im tired, and adrenaline gushes happen. i do alot of stupid things. 1+1 can become 3 and saying hi to ppl i dont even know. gosh. what other things i can do. I guess i do not need to drink alcohol to do stupid things. just make myself tired and it will work.

haha. on a happier note, i FINALLY GOT MY BUNK MATE FOR OSAKA. after being pangsehed like yeah. hahah. bunking with nicholoas(trombone) haha. YAHOO. can get to know someone better. haha. and anyway, nicholas is like funny. haha. thats the best part. looks like i can look forward to laughing like mad every night. haha.

convo that went on this morning

jerms busy doing work in band room
nicholas: jermain, i bunk with you kayy
jerm: points arrows and goes, set set set!
nicholas: haha. okay! dont rape me kay, i dont wanna lose my virginity.

hahah. LOL. anyway, he thinks im harmless. and apparently, i am. haha. oh well! thats all for now

off to do work and fall asleep after that
cya guys round

-jErM